In my last post, I wrote about how it's all about the stories we tell ourselves. Found this TED video in which Shekhar Kapur voices similar feelings, albeit in ways far more interesting and striking. Especially loved the bit where he explains the significance of the architecture and why the camera's looking down at the actor in a particular scene. Gave me goosebumps when I realized the effect these things have! WOW!
Another bit I liked was about how he consciously puts himself in a state of panic and chaos to find the few moments of 'truth' (as he calls it) which matter. Besides the obvious feeling of 'do u really have to lose it to be creative?', I realized how many times it's happened to me. Its 01.30 AM, I'm sitting at my computer, trying to finish a paper I must submit in a couple of hours. I finish a couple of sections, revise them, they still look funny somehow. I google around to find ways to say it better. When I look at the time, an hour has passed! Finally, clarity promptly shows up minutes before the deadline, immaculately dressed and with solutions to all my problems, and I say 'Bless you Jeeves, come on in!' Somehow, panic works, everytime!
And after I'm done with the submission, the only moment I remember is the one where clarity dawned on me, when everything seemed to make sense. Praaaabably that was my moment of 'truth'!
